New year, new word! This year is going to be life altering, complete change for me, and I am not sure how I feel about it. We made a decision as a family that I would move back home to live with my mom and dad. They are in their 80's and not doing very well. I need to make their life better. They did so much for us, it is only right. It is not an easy solution for me, I have two kids in high school, a junior and a senior, both boys, one struggling to graduate, one in a wheelchair, with cerebral palsy, Fortunately my husband is very capable, understanding, works at the same school that the boys go to, and it was his idea in the first place. Did I mention that my folks live 8 hours away? Or that I have 2 sisters that live on the same ranch as my folks, who aren't doing enough to help them? I am going to live either in a hotel or RV trailer because I can't live with my parents and work as their caregiver too. My sister who lives in a huge house down the road from them knows this and hasn't even offered to let me stay with her, she just has asked me if I really wanted to put my life on hold for this!!!! I am so sad to leave my family, but so excited to help my mom and dad. I have never been so torn in my whole life, except for the time when our youngest son was born and we had to spend 4 months in another city while our baby struggled to survive. We had to leave our 9 kids with various family, friends, on their own(the teenagers) ack!
All this to say, my word of the year is...TODAY. I am going to live for today this year, focus on what is going on at one point in time, today. Whether I am at home with my family, or at home with my parents, I will focus on Today. I may not have a job, I may not be there to see my boys last year in high school, I may not be there to see my grandkids growing, but I will focus on today and live in that moment, enjoying my time with my parents, making their golden years just that golden.
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